Wendell
Untitled
by
Felix Haydn
I wonder if my life is a lie. I want it to be a lie.
Labels would call what I have perfection. Little children dream every day of becoming the celebrity that I am. Both men and women have thrown themselves at me. And I've made millions doing what I love.
Fame. Fortune. Success.
Perfection?
That has to be a lie. There's no such thing as perfection.
So I've had my doubts. And I've learned to make my life a lie.
You are reading the work of someone known as Felix Haydn. Though people have screamed that name at me for years, it is not, and it has never been, my name.
Lie Number One.
I am Wendell Carmen.
When one has an image to protect, they'll fight to protect it from everything. First starting out, I had to protect my work from myself. I do believe I was in denial about it all, really. Nobody in my life had ever said I was anything other than great. My parents doted on my sick little body when I was young, and fellow students always looked to me for all the answers.
Perfection?
Lie Number Two.
I always recognized the fucked up way people saw me. How could I have been perfect? I was sick. I was stupid. And their adoration made me fucking miserable. So I had to change things.
I created Felix Haydn at the start of my high school career. And he evolved. Felix was the perfection everybody wanted to see.
I just wanted to see myself.
I wanted to see Wendell.
And thanks to her, I finally did.
Perfection?
Lie Number Three.
So if I'm such a liar, how can you count on anything I say being the truth?
But believe me. If you never trust me again, believe me when I say this.
This is all true.
This has all happened.
I am Wendell Carmen. And I killed Jezebel Gibson.
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Wendell The Introduction to Felix Haydn's "Untitled"
Wendell: A Premise Begin Reading Wendell Previous /// Next    The introduction to Wendell's story. He wrote it himself in his diary. It's a strange introduction, I know. But Wendell is a strange person. ~ZS-M *Quick note: I don't think that some profanity, mild violence, and a little sexuality necessitates the Mature Content Filter. If YOU think otherwise, then mine is not the gallery you should be visiting. This does NOT mean that I use these subjects a lot; only when needed or relevant to characterization or plot, and in my more extreme submissions the Mature Content Filter WILL be used. But it's life. Live it or get over it. Comments
 This is wonderful. The format, the style, the strength of prose. This is a great work of art about to happen.
The tension left at the end of this is amazing. The short, crisp synoptical style, the tightness of the prose -- magnificent and leads the reader right to the next part ... ... which of course isn't there yet.  Please. Hurry. More.  Excellent work. -- JDT  My Blog Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. -Heb. 11:1  *claps* Love, you've done it again. You've captured me. At first I was about to delete it and then I read it. Thank goodness I didn't. ^^
*Offers plate* More please. -- "When you gaze too long into the abyss, the abyss also gazes back." -Friedrich Nietzsche "The mind is not a vessel to be filled, but a fire to be kindled." -Plutarch Piff - the praise is YOURS, just happens to be coming from me. It's a fabulous bit of writing.
-- JDT My Blog Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. -Heb. 11:1 Your welcome.
-- "When you gaze too long into the abyss, the abyss also gazes back." -Friedrich Nietzsche "The mind is not a vessel to be filled, but a fire to be kindled." -Plutarch   Your writing style works very well for this kind of story...if you ever get your stories published you need to let me know where I could buy a copy or two.   That...was very unusual to read, I read it, and then I want to the top of the webpage and made sure it said Zoma-SM.
Because the simple words and weird articulation in the page's organization like really threw me off. Cause your writing style is serious, candid, but still has a poetic lilt to it. Another thing I also took note on, is it gave me a mental image, and nothing was really illustrated, but I could kinda of see Wendell writing this and he's sitting in a writing desk, kind of the color of yours but more square shape and he's got his leg proped up with his hand on his chin and a pen in hand while writing this and he's occasional glancing and very blury perception I have on Jezebel on the floor dead. It's one of those images I want out, but probably will haunt me 'till I draw it. When I see Jezebel though, I think of the angry johnny song. *laughs* -- Twist and Turn Where the Angel Burns Like Fallen Soldiers We Will Learn That Once Forgot - Twice Removed Love Will Be the Death...The Death of You |
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